Sunday, July 31, 2011

Photo Journal Day 2: Pike Place Public Market, Seattle Waterfront, and The Space Needle

Photo Journal Day 2:  Our first full day in Seattle we decided to hit the tourist spots.  Our first stop was Pike Place Public Market.  This was hands down my favorite place and I could have spent the better part of our week just in this few block stretch of the city alone.  I wanted to buy everything!!  The energy of the place is fantastic and I felt very jealous that we don't have an equally amazing place here in So Cal.  If I live in Seattle, this would be where I would do my shopping.  Oh...and of course we had to visit the first Starbucks :)

After Pike we headed down to the waterfront.  It was a spectacular view of Puget Sound.  It amazed both my husband and I how this state seems to be surrounded by water.  It's everywhere you turn, which makes for beautiful bridges and so much green!!!

Right before dinner dinner we stopped at the Space Needle for a better view of the city...the best view, really.  It was a great ending to our first day!

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Photo Journal Day 1: Traveling

Day 1:  This was our traveling day.  It was essentially Bella's first plane experience.  The first time she was on a plane was when she was almost two so she has no memory of it.  She was super-excited!!  Of course, my son the plane geek was giving her a crash course in Airplane 101.  It was the best plane ride I have ever taken :)

Monday, July 25, 2011

Monthly Reflection

I made a mistake.  I have made many in my life and I’m sure I’ll make many more.  But this was a big one…one that has shaped my life and the person I have become.  Many people make the same mistake.  Some fix it and other’s spend an entire lifetime regretting it.

The mistake?  Getting too far into a career that, although very secure and lucrative, leaves me feeling sad and empty.  I hate my job.  It does not make me happy.  But it has allowed my family to live comfortably and securely.  I’m good at it, but I don’t love it.  I wake up every morning wishing it were Saturday.  I spend every weekend wishing I could hit the pause button and spend those two glorious days off in “groundhog day” mode, like the movie, so I don’t have to face Monday and another day of work.

The crux of it all is that I have a pretty nice job.  I have a great boss.  I work with great people who I considered friends.  I have flexibility with my time.  I work at my own pace, without anyone looking over my shoulder.  My opinions matter and are valued, and I have some degree of decision making ability.  Oh, and I did mention that the pay is good, right?

So what’s my problem?  Well, the job can be high stress at times, which is something I can do without considering I’m pretty high stress myself without any help.  And although there is some room for innovation in my current job, my creative side (which is a really big part of who I am) is basically ignored.  I find myself trying to fill up my life with creative pursuits outside of work that often leave me feeling more stressed because frankly, with two children and household and family responsibilities I really don’t have time to pursue anything besides sleep.

So lately I have been really unhappy and it’s taking a toll on my family.  I snap too much and spend a lot of time feeling very unmotivated.  I try to carve out thinking time to either figure out a way out of this mess or just come to terms with it, but I can’t seem to find my way to one side or the other.  The fact of the matter is that I am not prepared to make the kinds of sacrifices that walking away from it all would entail…not because of me, but because I would not be the only one sacrificing and I don’t want to place my family in that position.  On the other hand, I simply cannot accept that this is it!  That I will spend the rest of my life feeling completely unfulfilled in my professional life and stuck in the rat race.

I have no answers and even the questions seem a bit uncertain right now.  In the mean time I am trying to live by way of a quote by Arthur Ashe shared with me by a friend over at A is for Akari

“Start where you are.  Do what you can. Use what you have.”

Until next time…

Friday, July 22, 2011


So...I have been away a long time...


and pondering...

and reassessing...

and regrouping.

I have many words to share, but just need to find some quiet time to write them down.  

I also have many photos to share from our trip to Washington.

Gimme a few days and then be sure to come back and visit.

Good stuff is in the works :)

Two Moments

Joining SouleMama...

"{this moment} - A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember."

The two best things in my life...

Have a great weekend!!

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Provoke and Ponder

Joining A is for Akari

“A new Wednesday ritual...some inspirational words to carry you (and me) through the rest of the week.”

Things have been hectic.  It always seems that when I feel I have everything figured out and good plan is in place, something happens to disrupt my new found order.  This is the place I am in right now...a place of unraveling.  I need some time to gather the pieces again.  In the mean is a great quote I found to help me through.

"Chaos and Order are not enemies, only opposites."
~ R. Garriott

I promise to be back soon with wonderful stories to share :)

Friday, July 1, 2011

This Moment

Joining SouleMama...

"{this moment} - A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember."

Still sleepy (early morning cuddle as I drink my coffee)...

Happy July, All!!